wow....well....i've noticed I haven't blogged here for a while....why? =) darned if i know, huh? but i guess...i owe an update on 2 weeks in some way, shape, or form...so here goes...

in my previous posts, I was talking to thomas because he's already been to seattle and back with at least one offer from Microsoft. (argh!)....hence, I was asking him about what I should do in terms of internet and bringing my laptop, what's provided there, etc. All in all, yes, I am addicted to the internet. There was hardly a time when i was in my hotel room in Bellvue while being offline --- er...except when they cut off my internet because I only signed up for one-day access...(GAUGH!).

seattle was....*grin*...man alive, that's a beautiful city. and given that I actually like partially-gray days versus sunny days, haha that city is almost perfect for me (bar the rain). did i have a great time? hells ya. =) went for my interview last thursday (4 straight interviews with 2 different teams)..came back..worked on lab...got up...worked on lab....did a bit of sightseeing...got back...gymmed...and thunked out almost immediately afterwards. Btw, if i ever decide to get a plane ride across the country again, remind me that 1. i get airsick and 2. yes, the timezone does change.

so i guess...here i am....cowering under exams (and yes, they're going to kill me...). *sigh* but i think i'm in some kind of transitory stage in my life...why? tons of things have changed. i don't know...turns and wild cards? in the past week i've gone to visit another country completely on my own (not a big deal but at least something i've never done before)...i've (seemingly so) lost my best friend in a plethora of thoughts and decisions which i still can't label as a good or bad idea....i've turned down 2 job offers that i almost drooled over...and i've started thinking about what i've wanted to do with my summer...try new things...visit new places....even eat things i've never really tried before. not that these things are anything special or unusual but rather, i'm a creature of habit. i've always been satisfied with things that were small and simple whilst admiring (but not practicing) an adventurous attitude. and now? i don't know...i guess i've decided to be more spontaneous, more direct/assertive.....(hah...if only my guidance counsellor could hear me now)...

all in all? i don't know where my life is headed and right now i guess the primary goal is to pass this year (if only, eh?). my life is just one big perpetuated whammy. and i'm uncertain of everything around me. why do i feel this way? (hey -- if i could tell you exactly what was wrong with me then many many good doctors would be out of the job)....and no, haha it's not that time of month. *sigh* =)

I know i've told people i like to live life without regret. that's a pretty darn strong statement which I don't even know if i can satisfy. i don't know where i stand. and just don't know what to say. things happen. things change. i wish they didn't sometimes. where did i go wrong? did i just make some big mistakes?

this better not be some big quarter-life crisis thing....i don't think everyone around me is ready for mood swings and hot flashes....er...not that i don't already practice these...er..hmm....(my housemates are reading this, aren't they? ...crud.) =)

--- jack of all trades (master of none).