something's come over me and i think i just need a few minutes right now just to think about things. i've been pretty short with people in the last 2 days...silently though. i didn't say anything but for some reason i've just been easily irritated and i don't want that to be me at all. for the most part i think it's really just because i'm adjusting from the off-reading-week and being away from someone super important to me. i almost cried again today but i'm also trying to pull myself together since it's going to be a bad week. my head hurts and i've just been so exhausted even though i really have no right to be; other people work just as hard or harder and keep ticking. i hate being so down. underneath it, i'm also stressed about school and probably not handling that very well either.

despite work and stuff, i half-committed myself to going climbing with friends next week. i'm worried about how much time i have to spare but i mean i should be able to take a night off to be with people i want to see and haven't seen in a while and to do something i used to really love doing. :)

i've also been thinking about gradball which i'd like to go to to see my friends before graduation separates us all, but it also stinks that the person i want to go with won't be able to be there (for very good reasons, i might add). so i'll probably figure that out by end-of-week (esp since tickets need to be bought by then).

i think the best news is that iron ring is next week :) i'm looking forward to it a lot -- the $28k ring that took me 5 years to get :)

and now...to go work on design and hopefully not start touching code that doesn't even pertain to this part of the project like i did earlier :)

oddly, i do feel a little better after blogging. hrm. maybe i should do this more often :)