strike whatever i said earlier. i do regret many things. i regret taking people for granted...i regret not being more open....i regret not thinking about things hard enough...and thinking of other things too hard....i regret not being more fun or more smart....i regret letting people down....i regret disappointing people....i regret losing...in general. maybe it's all my fault. i don't know. i really just don't =(

but yes, i do regret losing my best friend.

i think i'm completely and utterly lost at this particular juncture....

*sigh*....

--- signing off for now.