apparently vic's skool starts off with about 100 kids in the program and sizes down to about 30 in the final year ....9 of which successively made it through last year.

thus, his teacher (en francais): in your groups of four, one of you will not be back next year.
vic: crap. this is french. i don't even know what she just said!

*hangs head*

Just before our love got lost you said,
"I am as constant as a northern star."
And I said, "Constantly in the darkness
Where's that at?
If you want me I'll be in the bar."
On the back of a cartoon coaster
In the blue TV screen light
I drew a map of Canada
Oh Canada
With your face sketched on it twice
Oh, you're in my blood like holy wine
You taste so bitter and so sweet
Oh I could drink a case of you, darling
And I would still be on my feet
Oh I would still be on my feet

Oh I am a lonely painter
I live in a box of paints
I'm frightened by the devil
And I'm drawn to those ones that ain't afraid
I remember that time you told me, you said,
"Love is touching souls"
Surely you touched mine
'Cause part of you pours out of me
In these lines from time to time
Oh, you're in my blood like holy wine
You taste so bitter and so sweet
Oh I could drink a case of you, darling
Still, I'd be on my feet
I would still be on my feet

I met a woman
She had a mouth like yours
She knew your life
She knew your devils and your deeds
And she said,
"Go to him, stay with him if you can
But be prepared to bleed"
Oh but you are in my blood
You're my holy wine
You're so bitter, bitter and so sweet
Oh, I could drink a case of you, darling
Still I'd be on my feet
I would still be on my feet

--- joni mitchell (cover by diana krall)

did i mention i was excessively out of shape?

i've been napping on and off for the past 2 days (a very very bad thing given the fact that it's exam time and i need to crack open a textbook -- numerous texts actually). so i decided i needed to get out of the house. thus, got changed, and went biking a bit....course...i came back and *grin* ate cake (way to go for me trying to lose the weight i gained recently). course, i also never ate lunch so i grabbed the dish of chicken & rice my mommy had on the table.

dad walks in: "you're not going to eat all that, are you?"
me (knowing he wanted it and i just happened to nab it first): *glares*....*waits a second*....*uses spoon to divide dish into half* here. you get that.
dad: wow...we're fighting for food.
me: haha yeah....if you had one more kid, i'm not sure what you would do.
dad: i would have been booted out of the house.
mom: *gives dad a bowl of soup* (my mom's cool.)
dad: mmmm...soup's good!
me: i want half of that!
dad: there's a whole pot over there!
me: i want half of yours!
dad: no. *comes over to put some rice in the soup*
me: hey! that's my spoon! use your own!
dad: *goes for the fork on the table*
me: that's mine too!
dad: oh fine. i don't want any rice.
me: *hangs head*...*goes and gets him a spoon*

=) so that's my family. any questions on how i turned out the way i did? (btw, this whole conversation was in chinese...*sigh*)

on the aside....debating over a lot of things right now....and a significant number of topics on my mind aside from the beauty of exams.

all in all? balls are up in the air.....i've thrown more than i can catch....and i don't juggle.

--- a case of you.

my answer to exam question: "I don't know! Sorry!"

sad thing? i get 20% of the marks for that.

and yes, that was the first time i ever used that scheme to get marks since i've pretty much been able to get over 20% on all questions i don't know well so far.

however? uh...that exam was uhmm.............oy. it was recommended to me by people who have taken this course (and are repeating the course) that one should cut loses when writing the exam. if you don't know it, say it and move on. .....argh!

*sigh* can someone out there tell me i passed?

please?

narrr.....

first, i would like to say...........GAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

exam. 12 hours. like...exactly.

do i know anything? no.

am i going to pass? *crosses fingers*...

*sigh*...you know, i miss the days when i could go into an exam thinking that all i would need is maybe 10% on the exam to pass the course...

right now i'm at the point where i need OVER 50% on my final just to PASS the course.....am i the only one who sees the problem with this little predicament?

tired: 9.5 (on a scale of 10)
mind-boggler: should i continue studying for an exam i'm likely going to do badly in or keep studying....bear in mind this isn't exactly a course you can fully study for (course: theory of computation)
update on today's exam: *recalls what TA wrote on my midterm: 'you tried very hard'* [and no, that midterm did not go well.]

*hangs head*

side note: studying on bed after eating dinner at midnight is a BAD idea. bad. bad mojo. nah uh. need...coffee....neeeeeed....ooohhh..timmies!

no?

hmmm....

all right...now that i'm relatively awake....time to go find last year's final or bed......

aside: damn you, third year nsci's who don't have another exam for TWO weeks. TWO!!!! AUGH! I'm leaving the both of you!

welp....vic tried to stop me but it didn't work. i've just come back from cutting my hair...why? because it was just constantly getting in my way...thus, i went into the washroom with some scissors and started chopping...

uh.....where's my hat?

*sigh*

all right...it's NOT a stellar haircut....and one of the first things i thought of was the hair-do of the leelu (fifth element...)...

it's not orange *sigh*...but haha it's not exactly beauty-parlour so for all those i have to see in the next couple weeks......it'll grow back...er..yes?

--- don't. just...don't ask.