first off...really wanted to thank everyone who's taken care of me since my last point :) you guys rock :) i'm really glad that when i'm bummed and mad at the world, you guys are there to keep me going.

as for me, i'm feeling a bit better today ...well...yes and no. i actually go mad at the world again (but this time it's my fault just because i have a lot of work to do and was just getting frustrated)...hence meaning i had to hit the gym. today was my first time doing yoga. I meant to go to an abs class but the schedule changed (new month) so i ended up in the yoga class (hah!). at first i thought 'okay, i sit and breathe deeply. how bad can this be?'....and then..the stretching..and the balancing...hahaa that was funny. i don't know how people stay upright sometimes because i was falling over and trying not to laugh at myself. but this girl beside me was awesome. and the instructor was the most flexible guy i've ever seen.

next time, ab class. or kickboxing. now that would be cool. :)

i constantly get into blogging moods when i'm not near the computer and now that i am, i have no interest to blog. well, not that i have no interest but just that all the thoughts i wanted to get out aren't there. i feel like i have to shower, get work done, etc etc and it's not that i don't want to but tomorrow the same feelings are going to come back. part of it is that i'm scared of how things around me will turn out with family and friends and work. and maybe i said this before but i know i don't say it often...partially i'm just mad at my parents for things just not working out between them. i realized i try to avoid talking to my dad and trying to think of them and the way everything used to be because i start breaking down and i hate breaking down. but i know that it just means i'm going to live my life not talking to people that mean a lot to me just because i'm mad. i think i'm strong but i'm really not. today was kind of weird because i ate to try to feel better...and i don't want to do that. it's one of those times when you're just searching and you don't know what you're looking for but you'll just know when you find it...what gives peace of mind?